To lead you must first follow.

Cooped up at home, i think about all the things i've achieved to this date. Nothing marvel but they certainly lay the foundation. Unlike many who possess amazing guidance, bad ones do teach me alot too. Actually almost everything i've learned are usually from the negative :\ i'm thankful to have at least some smarts to differentiate the bad from good.

Anyway, I finally have things i'm willing to fight for again. I feel really grateful to have you, you know who you are ;) haha. I feel eager to see what the future holds for us. A dash of fear, nervousness too but all's good. Looking at my friends, i should have paused and realize how much older we've actually grown/look. Wow seriously.. Soon some of us are gonna fly to a whole other continent. Some probly get married early and settle down. Wonder if i'm gonna be anyone's God-Dad. Okay it's amazing really! feels kinda like living multiple lives cos you see the different stages of an individual. Well kinda~ Even small things like when i look around my room, what will my new space feel/smell/look like. Is this the same view from my window i'm gonna have 5 years from today.

Most of my childhood's pretty torn etc but to hell with that it's all over now and i'm relieved. All i know when i was young and stupid, i remember feeling ashamed, for some reason. i was ashamed of my parents. I couldn't face some of my friends at school anymore, because i desperately wanted to have the classic, you know, typical family. Mother, father. I wanted that security, so i resented my parents for quite a few years because of that. Damn i remember i couldn't even disclose it to Justin. Well at least the rest of the past is good, reaaal good :)

Where will i be in 10 years? Will i at least fulfill 1 of my 3 goals in life? All i know i'll start being called uncle dammit!!