I have no Father

As i remember more distant memories of my past. My patience grew thinner. I am fooling myself that my Dad was still a good man inside. But he wasn't, the cheating never stopped and neither did the teasing. You laughed at me those times i came home all bruised. You thanked God when my elder brother became deaf in one ear. I helped you numerous times, so you could just your trap about all the complaints and whining. You never attended any of my graduation ceremonies. You always told me you wished you had threw me down the mountain on your honeymoon with Mum. You drove me to the edge many times. You made me terrified of you due to your constant beatings but its over. Everything is over, your prime is over.

You, Dad, are the reason for my 3rd and final goal in life. You are only an obstacle. You are all negative but somehow motivating. You destroyed my childhood. I grew up being this weird self. I had plenty memory barriers but they're lifting one by one. I guess reality like in movies, father and son can be mortal enemies.

I have engraved it deep into my conscious. You have lost all love and respect from me. I do not care if I am removed from your family tree of rich folks etc. I'm glad i stood up on my own two feet and told you off today. I dont need any pat on the back, this sense of achievement inside is beyond pleasant to me. You faked your injury and got the policemen on your side. Fine, yknow why? Cos I remember, this is the 2nd time you did this to me. As a kid, i always hear other kids saying their Dad's their hero but i will be my own hero. That sounds good to me too.